You have lots of company. You are looking in your mind for something. You don't know what it looks like, and the only clue I have given you is that it probably doesn't make any sense!

Perhaps we can make it appear. Imagine some abstract art that corresponds to your thought. The art can be any color, or no color at all. Perhaps it is a painting, perhaps it is a sculpture, perhaps it can move.

But do not force your thought to become the abstract art that you want. Instead, let it be what it wants.

I have tried that